Ouch

Yesterday I had to have my dog put down. One of the hardest things I've ever done. Lots of crying. I miss him so much. I'd like to have him back. There are several other relationships I'd like back as well.

1. I'd like to have my parents both back in perfect health and without so many worries. They're not gone, just busy trying to survive.

2. I'd like to have my dog back.

3. I'd like for Kevin and Justin to have met my grandpa. I think this is our fifth year without him.

4. I'd like to have my other grandparents back. Physically they are both still present as well, but not the same people they were. I miss them both terribly.

5. I miss my brother so much. Again, still kicking, just far away. Mike, I know someday you'll have to chose where to live. I hope it's close enough we can see you more often.

6. And my dog Casey. Oh, heavens, I am going to have to go let Gus out in a minute to go potty and you won't be there. I got you to keep me company and be my running buddy. Now you're gone and I don't run. Sorry you didn't get the runs I always promised. I promise I'll try to do a better job with our next dog. It's just hard to be a mama to kiddos and a stupendous dog mama too. I love you buddy.

Lord, please, some peace today. Some comfort. I don't want to cry all day today again. I need to take care of Justin. Please be with Justin and I today as we get used to this new situation. Amen