Ups and downs

I know God sees everything that comes across our path and none of it surprises him. Either he has already prepared us for it in some way, or the season will somehow be used to bring us closer to him. Sometimes both. I just don't believe that today is only about today. Believing that life is just a long wait until you die would be so very hopeless.

God has prepared me for this season, but my reaction to it doesn't always reflect that. I flail and whine and complain instead of just closing my eyes and letting his grace flow.

I'm listening to a very peaceful song by Jeremy Camp called Surrender right now. It says a lot of what I am wanting to be, but, well...

Lord, thank you for this quiet time. Thank you for our Bible study about John. I know there is a reason you provided the author of a gospel rather than a letter at this time. It's time to just focus on Jesus. Not all the other stuff going on around me. Just Jesus. Thank you, Lord, for this season. You are so faithful. I love you.