A shift

I sat in church today listening to a message that applied so directly to my life and circumstances that I would almost swear God had prepared it just to speak to me. I know it was a blessing to others as well, but it was exactly what I needed to hear.

The other day I was begging for relief from the chaos around me. I wasn't asking for more God in my life. I wasn't seeking His strength. Basically I wanted less burden instead of more God. The cry of my heart was to remove the pain, not for His strength, or power, or grace to be magnified in my life.

As I looked down at my Bible today there was only one little area of red on either page. Hundreds and hundreds of words in black, only a few in red. The words of Christ: "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2Corinthians 12:9 Just like my circumstances... lots of junk with the truth of God's love for me standing out as the one true thing in all of it.

Thank you Lord for using church leaders to speak your truths to me. Thank you for your Word. Thank you for the truth that instead of asking for greater strength or simply relief, that my prayer needs to be for more of You. There is no cure on earth that can heal what faith in you can accomplish in an instant. Thank you for your dogged pursuit of your wandering daughter. Please renew my heart and mold it as I go through this season. Use me, Lord. Help me to understand this nugget of truth that I have never really grasped before. I love you...